your smell alone

your smell alone,
lingering on my belongings,
glued to my thoughts,
bring me to a state of euphoria.
a piece of heaven,
i can't deny it any longer.

i want you. 

i don't care if it sounds cheesy,
your eyes are like an ocean,
unending and blue.  i could stare forever.. but that would be weird. 
everything you do is adorable. 
i know you care about others,
i see the depth of your heart.
your music is incredible,
similar to mine :)
sometimes i get confused about what i want,
but for now i know,

i want you.

you hide a lot,
but it's my goal to not have anything hidden between us.
i kinda think you're kinda perfect. 

for now, i have you
and whatever happens, it doesn't matter.
because i'll always have had you once. 
and that's something to be happy about,
something i'm lucky to have. 

lucky to have the smell lingering.
  

I like almost everything about you.

It's hard to see your faults.  I love the smell of you.  SO much.  And I don't know why, and that sounds really weird.  But it's true.  I love seeing you, I love when your name pops up online.  Why are you so amazing?  :)  You make me happy.  I'll just add another smiley face for the heck of it :) i like you.

Pure happiness from a bottomless foundation

For the past couple days, I have been in a sort of depression.  It's not fun, as it's label clearly describes.  It involves crying (something I pretty much never do.. come on thats for weak people ;P), and feelings that no one cares about you, they're just moving on with life and dealing with your presence in it's pathway.  But then I came to this AMAZING realization.  And it has so empowered me with love that I can't hold it in, and although this is my third post in two days, I must declare it to you all, and whoever else runs across it. 

I feel sooo happy and good and satisfied at this moment in time.  And I need to remember it, and know that all I need to hold on to it is bring myself there in thought.  Because I have seen it's effects, I've seen all the good that comes from it, and I know that it is powerful and truly works.  When we choose to be happy, we gain happiness.  It's inevitable, and it's what makes life so loveable.  And I love it.

I was talking with someone for probably two hours about whether or not good and bad exist or whether they're just a human opinion that is completely personal and only what you think of it.  And I honestly cannot live with think neither exist.  I believe that they there are good things, and there are bad things.  It's good when you're watching the sunset, smelling the grass and smells of spring, feeling that perfection within you.  And it's bad when you're in a state of sadness.  Those are all facts, and nothing can change that.  Therefore, I believe that good and bad do exist, and that our thought determines our reality.

When we're so loving and so willing and the three main qualities that make up the motives behind what we do are charity, humility, and kindness, then do we find perfect happiness.  It is love with no boundaries, no labels, no exceptions, nothing.  Only pure and perfect love.  It doesn't want, it doesn't need to recieve back that love.  It is fulfilled by the single satisfaction of making that other person feel better, or have a better day.  It never gets jealous, doesn't get angry, and always forgives, with no limits.  I love this feeling.  And I must remember to bring it into everyday of my life for the rest of eternity.  When I fail to do this, I must somehow remind myself. 

After all who wants to be held back by tears, stopped by fears?  Live life without fear, only with love alone.  Love is life.  That's why we're all here.  To love.  It's simple.  Be happy.

Love, Contemplation's Girl

one quick quote, not much writing on it, but for your interpretation

"Love is a friendship set to music."  Thought it was pretty cool, and I love that Love can be expressed in so many different ways.  Tell me what you think, if you so desire. :)

Love Contemplation's Girl

It may be April Fools Day, but this poem is all seriousness.

Something I wrote with a little of my freetime today.  Holds all my passion. 

It kills me, the tension
But tell me, what's invisible and lacerates?
I forgot to mention, I hate the apprehension
And I finally found eyes at the blind convention.
If you identify yours we'll head to the fourth dimension.

Confusion is inescapable,
A part of our capability.
When the question of what to want has no real answer,
We strive to be our best, while loving all the rest,
A perfect symphony,
A folk dancer.

Do dreams have meaning?
The solution is irrelevant,
They're a fruit of the mind. 
And I'm sorry if that makes me criminal,
I'm only struggling to be,
The best I can be.

Respect

Hey guys and gals,
Once again, it's been quite a while since I've updated you all.  I've just been thinking a lot lately about how respect works.  We must respect and even learn to appreciate those of other nationalities and religions.  I've had several opportunities to practice and demonstrate this in my everyday life. 

Several weeks ago I visited a mosque, and met other students of Islamic faith in highschool and college.  It was great to meet with them, see that they were just normal teenagers like any of us.  I found that they believed in many similar things as I, a Christian Scientist.  They believed in the Bible, one God, and accepted Jesus as a prophet.  They had strong morals that I really respected, and were looking for peace in prayer just like any of us as well.  It was great to see this, meet a very graceful and beautiful woman.  It's somewhat unfortunate that so many Americans misjudge these wonderful people because of a small few who do something wrong.

Yet again I had a similar opportunity when talking to another Christian, who went to a foursquare church.  There are several differences between their church and our Christian Science church, but yet we could easily relate and even connect.  It came up randomly in conversation, and blossomed into a very comforting conversation.  This way of respect and appreciation really works.  It's what this world needs.  Share it with others.  Love the world.  It's the greatest gift we have.  Love yall.

Love always,
Contemplation's Girl

Singin in the rain

It has literally been FOREVER since I last blogged.  I'm really sorry guys, just been SUPER busy.  Felt like it was about time to blog again, because tonight I was quite spontaneous.  A friend and I slid through one giant puddle (more like river) going down a hill on a field of grass.  It was a little cold, and my clothes got (more than mildly) dirty and muddy, but so much fun, and so worth it.  In fact, I've been trying to do many of these spontaneous things lately.  They keep life interesting!  For example if I think it would be cool to go to the art museum, I go!  If someone wants to go for a run in the pouring rain, I'm down!  Swimming in a Washington Ocean?  Going without makeup for a few days?  Watching 4 movies at once?  All of these things make life loveable. :)  Anyways, today has been very rainy and thundery.. I love it!  This is weather I enjoy very much, because it reminds me of home, is comforting, and sounds flat out awesome.  Lots of love to you all!  I promise to keep you updated MORE FREQUENTLY!  And I don't break my promises.  LIVE SPONTANEOUSLY. 
Love,
Contemplation's Girl